I Have A Baby!

It has been almost 3 quarters now since I did some updates on my PCOS progress. To recap, September last year when I got recovered from my HFMD and Ovarian Drilling surgery, I had my regular period every month. As much as I am feeling relieved that I am getting my menstrual every month, this time around, I for once hope I do not have any because that will indicate that I might be pregnant! Husband and I tried out every month using fertility apps to track the timing that has the highest chance of getting pregnant. Every time, I will use ovulation test as well to see if I ovulate but it shows negative. I decided perhaps I should not keep thinking about it and let it just happened naturally. However, I could not stand the thought that I have my period and the apps gave me the right time that I have my period yet, could not give me an accurate timing for ovulation? I was a bit frustrated emotionally and told my husband that I wish to see Dr.Tan from Alpha Fertility again.

It was December 2018 and I was glad to see the doctor again. I told him that everything was fine with me except, I am still not pregnant. So, he gathers some information from me regarding the period timing, and do some scans to see if everything is alright. After that, he told us to probably tried out 3 consecutive days during the Christmas Day (how romantic ^^) and see how it goes. Husband and I look forward to those days and we did what the doctor told us to. I have to be honest that I do not have any high hope because what the doctor said about the date is also the same as indicated in the apps. Hence, I just take it with an open-mind.

In January 2019, I have to go to Japan with my sisters without the husband. As I was packing my luggage, I look at my pregnancy test boxes laying on the shelf. Without hesitation, I just bring along because I have been wasting and buying so many pregnancy tests which gave me negative results since last year. So, I probably thought I should just get rid of it all in a foreign country.

When I was in Japan, I noticed that my period should have come around that timing. I did think if I should do a test but it happens to me before few months ago. It is just a normal delay of few days. Eventually, the period came anyway. Therefore, I just continue to enjoy my holiday, eating with my heart out all the raw sushi there is. A day before I leave Japan i.e 10 January 2019, I went into the bathroom and thought that it is time for me to get rid of the pregnancy test. It was really early in the morning when my eyes are barely open and my sisters were all still sound asleep. I took a pissed and look at the pregnancy test result. In just seconds, I saw a sign that was so new to me. I look closely and the faint lines started to form a very solid "+" sign. I was excited at that time but I just look at the product box again to see if that sign means positive! I told myself, okay let's not get too excited. Perhaps, I should try to test the second time using another brand of pregnancy test. Yes, I took more than 1 pregnancy test to Japan. I got the same results again. I was so excited that I went back out the toilet and my eldest sister was awake by now. I told her that I think I am pregnant and she is going to be an aunt. At that moment, I felt a mixture of happiness, excitement yet worried because this is REAL. I was not really ready for this result although I have been foreseeing this day to come.

I thank God for this gift and I can't wait to tell this to my husband when he come and picked me up from the airport.

At this point in time as I am writing this blog, I am in my week 32! I just want to say that, even if you have PCOS, as long as you seek help and really wanted to have a child. It is all possible. Do not give up but seek for help and keep trying.

I had a smooth pregnancy so far without any morning sickness. I hope I will get the time to share with you about my journey of giving birth. Right now, it is just too soon for me to say anything yet. Nevertheless, I am excited and looking forward for my LO (little one) to enter this world safely and healthily.

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